The incredible
Baby is there. We're getting an ultrasound in less than two weeks but i can already tell Baby is in there, moving, swinging, bouncing off the (womb) walls and hopefully having a jolly good time.

After that first time when he/she woke me from my nap on the couch, i've felt that incredibly odd kicking (it's actually more like something solid diving in and out) more than once, especially in bed. Baby likes me to be relaxed so she/he can explore around without interruptions.

On Saturday i went to the cinema with Pablo and Kurt. We watched 'The Incredibles' and i think Baby loved some of the action scenes, because he/she would not stop moving.

I quickly grabbed Pablo's arm in the middle of an extreme persecution scene and placed his hand on my belly. He could feel it too. First time for daddy. Baby did a few flips and turns to honour the occasion. Pure action hero.

See what i mean?



It's a good thing barneys new york doesn't ship overseas. And it's an even better thing that my visa is thinner than ever.

Wake up call
Made tasty lunch today (chicken casserole with natural tomato and onion, served with green bean rice salad) and talked to the telly for a bit, mainly answering question about ancient Greece. Pablo left in a rush and i cuddled up in the couch. I fell asleep in about ten minutes, with the soothing sound of TV in the back. And then Baby woke me up bouncing against my belly. Baby's own way of giving me a wake up call.

Framed
Our baby has been officially framed. At first, the father-to-be wouldn't hear about putting our very first ultrasound in a frame, but the idea has finally grown on him. The picture is currently sitting right behind my laptop, surrounded by orange and wine coloured beads.

The image was captured on his/her 11th week of existence and she/he is going on to week 18th, so things have certainly changed around us in this time. At 12cm crown to rump, baby is large enough to give me a good swift kick in the tummy (or so i read). As for mum-to-be, she's basically tired, relaxed from all the oversleeping she gets, fat, healthy, emotional and wondering if she'll ever get any cravings.

Sometimes i feel time goes by too fast, but most of the days i just can't wait to meet Baby.

Will someone

... please keep me away from all those tempting baby stores on line before i take the visa out of my wallet?

Supersizing me (or not)

Everybody tells me i don't have a belly yet. From my friends to the stranger at the spa, all i hear is "four months? you're not very big!". Well, i find myself *huge* already. I lost so much weight in the last year that i can locate each new half kilo in my body. My jeans won't close properly so i've run to the stores and got myself my very first pregnancy outfit. At H&M. Lagerfeld still doesn't design for me!

Countdown



I opened this blog on August 30th, but didn't have the courage to start feeding it and making it public until today. I wasn't sure what i wanted to say here that wouldn't be told out in ambivalence. I wasn't even sure i wanted to say that much about something so private as expecting a baby. Also, i didn't know if i should write in English.

I was born in Madrid and Spanish is my first language for everything except -for various reasons- my blog. Speaking about my child belongs to the intimate sphere and thus should be in Spanish. But this is an ambivalence spin-off and i do have the intention of speaking English to the baby from day one (or minus 200, for that matter).

Finally, my last reason for keeping this second journal is all the baby-related theme. I understand that, now i'm pregnant, i'm fascinated by the subject and this may not be the case with other ambivalence readers. I think it's a good idea to still speak my mind on these issues and give the baby a chance to have his/her own space in my blogging life.

So here is 'Coming Up Next', a place where i intend to talk about pain, fun, strong emotions, happiness, scary thoughts and this little ball rolling inside my womb.